Sunshine

Sunshine

You are like a ray of sunshine 

Everything that I wish I could have 

But maybe I don’t feel quite enough 

The loudest of laughs and the sweetest of guys 

I don’t trust you to be here for very long and I am afraid to be right 

So maybe its better to ignore the fireworks and the tension that is is tangible in the air 

What if I regret not putting myself on the line ? 

But what if I regret the reality of you even more?

Either way I will probably never know beautiful man 

And maybe its better if I don’t 

So I can keep the dream of what we could be always close to my chest. 

#SoulSessions – On a journey to finding the words again

#SoulSessions – On a journey to finding the words again

I would like to start this post by saying thank you to every single person that has ever read any of my posts. I would also like to give a special shoutout to all the people (mostly my friends lol) that consistently read my posts. These past few years have been a rollercoaster and it has been such a mission to find the motivation to consistently share and post on my blog. It has also occurred to me that I have not really shared too much about myself directly and I would like to change that a little bit.

First things first the reason I started this website was because I needed some form of expression during a dark period in my life and I can’t tell you how proud of myself I am when I look back at my old posts and see the progression. Trust me there was a huge shift all thanks to God. It has also felt good to connect with myself and other people through my poems over the years and I am so grateful for that. The next thing I would like to share is that my life over the past 2-3 years has been a lot of transition, growth and just well life. Facing the real world and dealing with certain adult realities has sometimes taken the poetry from me and maybe even my voice a bit. I have realized that I have been going through the rhythm of life and that the words feel so far away. I have also not been super intentional about myself and maybe lost a little bit of myself. I promise myself and all my readers that I will be the girl again that hears the words buzzing in her head and feel the joy of them pouring out on paper in my heart once again. I will find the poetry in my life because its always been there.

I am also writing this post for anyone who has lost a little bit of themselves in this thing called life to remember who they are. To think of the thing that makes their heart sing and try to do it. Joy and peace aren’t abstract concepts and should always feel close to your heart. Take a deep breath and remember who you are lovelies.

Not Alone

Not Alone

If your reading this

Alone with your thoughts in the dead of the night

Your mind running wild like a video stuck on replay

I want you to know that you are loved

Totally, completely and utterly

In all your beautiful glory

A one of a kind creation that can never be cloned

You deserve to be accepted fully and with no reservations

Loved without limits

And held on to with the firmest of grips

Because you are everything and nothing could ever replace you.

Lock and Key

Lock and Key

I am giving you everything and absolutely nothing

All at the same time

When you read my words you might think you know me

Its a fair assumption because there is vulnerability here too

But the thing is that you see exactly what I want you to see when I want you to see it

Its funny but in a way its control

And how can you possibly think you know me when I am finding out something different about myself everyday

The truth is that you only know what I tell you.

Why?

Why?

Why couldn’t you love me?

See all the effort I put in

Why did you leave?

When I did all I could to make you stay.

Why wasn’t I enough

I wanted so badly to be

Why wasn’t I accepted?

I never seemed to tick all your boxes

Why couldn’t you see the beautiful parts of me?

I needed your validation so badly

Why did you hurt me?

I never would have hurt you

Why oh why

I know now that the answers my questions can never be found with you but always and forever only with me

I never needed you.

More

More

Theres more to you

Always has been and always will be

You see yourself as some broken thing that can never be fixed

But I see the real you, hidden deep inside

Those broken pieces

I see it and love you so

I only wish that you could see it too

Not a perfect being

But beautifully imperfect

Irreplaceable and needed

Right here and right now.

Who’s that girl?

Who’s that girl?

Who’s that girl

Light and carefree

Bright red lipstick and the warmest of smiles

Begging you to come closer

Who’s that girl?

Unforgettable in her mini skirt and long flowy dress

Her light unmistakable

Who’s that girl?

With words always on the tip of her tongue and mind bursting with imagery

Who’s that girl?

With her big heart and the glass always half full

Praise on her lips and prayers in her heart

The world making sense piece by piece

Inner peace a constant

Pure

Pure

There is no pretence here 

No carefully constructed words 

No fear of rejection 

No chance that I will ever leave 

Because you are everything to me 

A true original 

Nothing and no one can compares

Your flaws are intricate designs 

Only to be found in this beautiful masterpiece 

Your heart the most beautiful thing in world to me 

Oh how I love you 

Take care

Take care
Take care when the world feels like it’s falling apart
Brush your hair, your teeth and remember to breathe
Take a long shower and remember who exactly you are
You are nights spent over a bright lamp obsessed with achieving your goals
You are laughter shared with friends and memories made
You are the very best of humanity
You are an answered prayer and the strength others need
You are valued and you are cherished
Every piece of you  is needed right here and right now
Take care

Dangerous woman

Dangerous woman

They call her dangerous
A woman who knows who she is.
For she seeks no validation and the sky is just her starting point.
She fights for what she wants and does not give up.
They can not control her so they call her names.
Hoping that raining abuses on her would make her shrink
They do not understand her so they demonise her.
They put labels on her hoping to put her in this negative box they have created.
She makes the men cower and shatters their fragile egos.
Success is her birthright and she refuses to give it up.
Dangerous woman you hold the world at your fingertips.

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