Sometimes I want to ask you why?
Did I mean nothing to you and our friendship just a waste?
For so long I thought the venom inside me was self-inflicted
Until I realised the venom was injected by you.
For a very long time, I questioned myself and cowered as the poison spread slowly and painfully
Until it almost killed me.
The poison crippled me and I hated myself for it.
I beat myself up every day wondering why I was so weak
But mostly I worry and wonder about you
And how all this was so normal to you.