why?

Sometimes I want to ask you why? 

Did I mean nothing to you and our friendship just a waste? 

For so long I thought the venom inside me was self-inflicted 

Until I realised the venom was injected by you.

For a very long time, I questioned myself and cowered as the poison spread slowly and painfully

Until it almost killed me.

The poison crippled me and I hated myself for it. 

I beat myself up every day wondering why I was so weak 

But mostly I worry and wonder about you 

And how all this was so normal to you. 

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